I don’t even know what I am now I can’t even find me Anywhere If I’m only a refraction Of your heart Then it’s only feeling That is true And I’m fed up Feeling what to do Being with you was always A wise endeavor Painfully you heeded An oath of never And almost I can see The real act of being Seeing in the sight that You’re seeing in Every little life sits In awe about you Lifting up their lights To be all in with you And I just feel the wake And the waves of love true And I want to be One with you Not the fake old two I don’t even know what I am now I can’t even find me Anywhere I’m only a refraction Of my heart Feeling out the ins Feeding out from in you Finding out that sin Is a sound from in you Feeling every weight Pushing in into you Feeding back takes no more Effort from you And I want to be One with you Not the fake old two

Oh Jenny Back when we were one Our heart broke up in two Then many A life we spent not knowing What to do Crying out for a sister But hiding away my truth I’m dying as a resistor Cuz I’m pushing away Everything but you Oh Jenny When I saw you being you Well I was through Then empty I could feel all of our Thought waves passing through How I knew that you felt it I was sending love to you I didn’t try to deflect it I was dealing with my old refuse I skinned my kiwi with a knife You hadn’t seen that your whole life We changed the weather on a drive We dreamed and saw it come to life Your bulldog ran into the fight And then you saved me From my fire fright How I knew that you felt it I was sending love to you I didn’t try to deflect it I was dealing with my old refuse Oh Jenny There’s so much I have To thank you for You get me And how I’m hoping that We have so much more

I am trying to trace The whole of you fear Cuz I don’t know what it takes To live a life without fear I’ve got only my warm embrace For you fear My Fear x 4 Love doesn’t have Even one of you fear But love isn’t a thing Without you fear No matter how hard you look All you see is your eye, fool My Fear x 4 And I can’t hardly feel Without numbing it out With sugar, weed, And my own doubt I can only hold out for so long Before I’m doing what I want And I can’t hardly feel Because I never dealt So now I comfort My young self I can only hold out For so long before I’m showering myself with love I am trying to face The soul of you fear Cuz I too often mistake The role of you fear But I am loving the taste I’ve grown for you fear My Fear x 3

I’m your mama’s White grand-baby fantasy I can keep time With your heartbeat next to me Anytime you want I’ll be around Except when you don’t Want me around I get the need to be alone I need it more than most I swear to Zod I’m a cactus In your dry hump fantasy Crackin' itches Only you and I can see I hold tight to the flow that isn’t there Your water fills me like a bear And gets me wetter than You and me We got all these pieces That don’t quite seem to fit The ideal being cast at we But I don’t give a fuck We’re all hapless beasts ya Does any light so shine Without gravity’s greed I don’t know Un-define me as relational apathy Unattached with Full compassion, fragily Rising up only to then descend I fear the illusion has no end It’s fine, I’ll live inside a dream Please Send me a peaceful Disease that I can call My own my own Cuz I can’t tell What’s right with me now Am I just another one Of my useful ideas I don't know All I need is some habit to undo All I need is sameness to elude All we need is ill to transmute All I need is a big fat hug from you All we need is an alternating scene All I need is will to come clean All I need is a notion to be seen Like a cosmic omnigasm stew There’s only everything to do Please Come into me now There’s always another dream Floating on, floating on in between Burying the tune Beneath my own feet ya A wellspring comes up to feed The crown-burst calling out to me

Something about falling For the sun Makes me feel I’m Not the only one Holding on to One another’s love Saving up to Having not enough Something about Figuring it out Waking up to find That it’s played out Taking down all That I’ve given up Dressing down Whatever I make up Overthinking anything at all Spinning out of touch And growing small Something about Feeling out the end Summoning the place Where it begins

I am a man (Right down to the letter) I did do bad (Almost did know better) Yet I didn’t have a And I don’t have a clue But I’ve seen enough (See what you have been through) I face my stuff (To stand up behind you) And you walk through me The way you talk to me The way you open your gaze The way you reach out for me I don’t deserve at all Staci, I’m meeting you With always open arms With basic parity A stage to honor all of you Oh Staci Cuz we fucked up ya Katie Enough’s enough now Staci Set on display But not held down by it You make your way Through objectifying Wounded in the darkness Brought to light because of you The way you’re looking at me Shakes the “hard won” ambit Of my enabled life Oh Sadie You know that I would never Leave you alone You got your heart Inside of my own And now that you have come to me I might understand why you don’t always Hate me Cuz you’re angry girl As you’re wont to be When all your everything Reduces to commodity Oh Casey, we need you girl We need your claws and teeth Your grace your subtlety Your fearless naming what you see Noemi (Because I love you) Staci (Be dreaming of you) Jamie (Will listen to you) Rainy (No need to rule you) Katie (It’s good for all now) Zadie (To heed your call now) Macey (Always adore you) Staci (The stars are for you)

I was a fish in the ocean Trying to not get eaten by the whale You were the whale with a notion Every fish was there for you to kill So get your fill Forget your fear You’ve got run or fight or die You only you know How you love And when you feel it stronger evermore You only you know When you’ve learned To love the change that takes you far from home You were like a shooting star but Blinded by devotion

How about you Into your head I become you Circular dead All around you Luculent web Now you find you Seeing in energy Minded to you Felt in the breeze Waving with you Fluid as mercury Float your breathing Swell into sea Shake the bounds of To not and to be Think it through now It’s happening Now you know me No holding me hostage To the old me That I was often Still and solid Fixed and unmoving Now I’m fluid Foaming and frothing Now I find you Find you in me Freedom dreamers Adrift in the sea Infinite spans of unreality Now you find us Down up in the deep Moving masses where Blazing threads meet Lucent angle A shift of the scene All about you In every inflection It’s not the point now It’s the connection Running through you And fed to relation All is one now A vivid conception Now I find you Being of Anything Mind of empty Melting the freeze Laying in you Liquid lithography How about you Diligent dead Kind of you to Open and let Shading in you And lighting ahead

Why do we do it at all Put them through our hell How do they love their way through When is how is why Hearing us out when we fall Building a frame for our bell So we can peal and sing it out How can we be honest In an ocean of untruth Fingering out which abuse Evens out which abuse And justifies which rule And becomes the Sum of how we soothe How is it even when you’re Next to be leaving My heart is grieving And bereaving you Only when I come to A synthetic lightmare Do I feel your ease Endlessly streaming through Though you might be nothing My tail light catches you Bull enough for something That sails by unattuned Why do we do it at all When is how is why Hearing us out when we fall

Any garden that grows Any old so and so It’s a lie Some fuck up for the fun Feeling deeply at home In the one How can it not be so One and then another It knows That every time we fall Apart It’s a start Canny, OK, and hep Coming out of me yet Waiting out the advent Slacking off in my tent With a sigh I think nobody knows Which detail they impose Any of each affair None at all What if there Is no why Circle only will square When another angle is bare And every time we fall Apart It’s a start And every time we fall In love You know that I Can’t get enough Of you And me You and me And every time we fall Apart It’s a start And every time we fall In love You know that I Can’t get enough I know what you think of All of this love Is it real Is this how it feels (baby say that) I know if we try enough Faking it forever Then it never has to end

Every time we think about it Don’t you wanna punch it out And every time we talk about it Don’t you wanna fuck it up and I know I know Enough is enough I know I know Enough is enough I don’t know what’s on your mind If we ain’t lovers why do I Keep on keepin’ on Even though I’m wrong If you don’t know What’s on your mind It might be cause You’re being blind To your own mind But you’re my kind Enough is enough x 18 If we can’t be Lovers then hand me The bomb and I’ll start running Because I can’t be Without your love Inside and outside Intro and outro- Verted it’s hurting Me and All who subscribe Without your love